I feel it neccesary that I apologize for the events that had happened earlier on in the year regarding my application. I do realize that maybe this shouldn't even be posted, but I wish to apologize very much for the events I had caused. My intentions were meant only to get on the team, not to raise anyone's hopes or anything of that sort. The events that followed my application were entirely my fault, if not the entire thing. I acknowledge that I had made a terrible mistake. The mistake was not applying for the team, but it was that I allowed someone else to talk me out of it. I believe that she had meant no such thing to happen, and was only expressing her own opinions regarding my application, which I admire her for doing so. This post is only my apology, which I realize is late, very late, actually, but I suppose better late than never! And so I apologize especially to Say for getting her hopes up on me, I do hope that I will be forgiven for what I did. And for those that do not know of this event, I personally believe that it remains that way. I have made many mistakes in my life, some that I regret more than others, some that I wish I had never done. But we are all human (I hope!) and mistakes are part of our nature. There is no human alive that has never made a mistake, because then they wouldn't be human. Mistakes can be very small, and also very big. The one I made is one that I regret deeply and wished that I never did. I had hurt people, and I did not wish for that to happen. Do what you wish with this post, but I just wanted to express my deepest apologies. Thank you for taking the time to read this.
edit: Thanks for moving it to the right place!