Well, I'm done. It took forever. There was terror and stress; there were anxiety and panic attacks aplenty (some assignment induced, some contingency induced), but my first year progress report is D O N E!
On the one hand, this means I LIVE AGAIN! On the other, it means I now get to fear the question of whether or not I survived or did well enough to keep my fellowship.

I know the finished project is shaky and rocky. Not polished or impressive. I know this. I can no longer care about this. I could hardly motivate myself to work on the bloody thing, much less deal with the minutiae now that it's DONE. But, the sad thing is that while I can't be motivated to WORK on the minutiae, I need no motivation to WORRY about the minutiae.
Anyway, I'm up. It's 5:30am. The project that has been a drain on my life for the last several weeks and that I have--probably masochistically--allowed (or made) to blockade things like video games and other pursuits (languages, etc.) out of my life is DONE. I am probably too jacked up on coffee to go to bed and even if I could go to bed, I'd want to get up in like 4 hours to go into the office anyway... so, yeah, a little pointless. As it is, I will go into the office, print my paper (I think it has to be done in triplicate... there's your first sign that something's wrong: they want your assignment in triplicate), get it covered in the office (my adviser's suggestion), possibly get talked into assisting with school kids (hey, kids, we're going to talk about electricity while I'm worse than hung-over: exhausted and running on like 4-6 hours of sleep in the last 60 hours!!), and then right about when that ends, I should crash completely and utterly. Maybe pick up another 4 hours of sleep then. Then, Capoeira, then video games and all those things I've missed so much whilst paper consumed my life.
I was going to post something along these lines on facebook, but then I decided that there were certain people that I wouldn't want to see it (mostly my parents

...why am I friends with my parents on facebook again!?). Somehow I thought you guys would understand.
